I hope you’re ready to get personal. If not, film music posting will resume after these messages.
It’s nearly 5 am, and I’ve been trying to sleep since 11 pm; I’m so tired, but illness is a tricky thing, so it’ll be a miracle if any of this makes sense. In any case, I just wanted to say I am quitting some of my social media, namely my filmsonwax accounts on Twitter and Instagram. The reasons for this are twofold; the first is that I really fucked up today by misunderstanding a tweet and hurting someone. I have no emotional filter at the moment, and while it’s absolutely no excuse, that didn’t help as I was generally doing what I shouldn’t be doing instead of resting, i.e. tweeting.
The second is that Twitter has not been good for me for a long time and has been a lot of taking and very little receiving, mentally. I was looking at all these different apps on my phone and wondering why I was spending so much time looking for an alternate place for something that felt like it was killing me. It’s all bad juju to me, so I need to suck the poison out of the wound. Or something.
I do have a “professional” account that I will probably use to hawk my shit and network, but that’s it, and I have no idea when I’ll get to that or have any inclination to do so.
The other thing that I mentioned is that I’m really ill. Long story short, I have the flu, which means a terrible cough, bunged-up nose, and headaches. It also plays havoc with my diabetes, which I found out on Tuesday when I collapsed in the street. Obviously, that was really scary, and I was fairly convinced I was going to die.
Luckily some good samaritans picked me up and took me to the doctor; unfortunately, my experience when I got there was less than satisfactory. At least I annoyed him by throwing up all over his shiny floor.
That’s it for the moment. Thanks for listening to my bullshit, film score-related and otherwise.
All the best Charlie. Take care of yourself x
xo glad you’re okay. I missed the memo that you were leaving Twitter. Please stay in touch!